The View From My Brain

Facing reality

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 16:32:18 +0200

Right, I haven’t posted here since February.
I think I should just accept that this Tumblr is not gonna be taken care of these days. I’m alright, people, studies are stressful as usual, and rather than blogging in my sparetime, I now spend most of it with my partner, thus leaving precious little time for blogging.

Who knows. I might pick it up again at a later date. Now, though, I will officially not be posting anything, and will be gone from the tumblrsphere.

Take care of yourselves, no one’s gonna do it for you.

Maybe one day I’ll be back, but for now, life is leaving me no time to tumbl.

So long and thanks for all the fish

XOXO

Jem

"Words can be like tiny doses of arsenic: they are swallowed unnoticed, appear to have no effect, and..."

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 18:08:35 +0100

“Words can be like tiny doses of arsenic: they are swallowed unnoticed, appear to have no effect, and then after a little time the toxic reaction sets in after all.”

- Victor Klemperer (via inessita)

allisticntprivilege: Neurotypical (and Able Bodied) Privilege is saying “yes you can” when someone...

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 18:08:05 +0100

allisticntprivilege:

Neurotypical (and Able Bodied) Privilege is saying “yes you can” when someone says that they can’t do something. You think you’re encouraging them to be confident, but you’re really just blatantly denying their feelings, and denying the existence of their disability by pretending that there are certain things that everyone is able to do.

Am considering whether I should buy a pair of crested geckos

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 18:07:44 +0100

Someone’s selling, because she can’t keep ‘em any longer due to a serious illness (she’s had to sell all of her animals except her dog, it’s so sad :-( )

But yeah, crested geckos. A pair of them. Male and female. Very pretty. And I’m kinda wanting them

I need to think this over. I do not want to buy animals on a whim.

But… crested geckos! So cute!

youngbadmanbrown: shecountsblacksheep: handaxe: Levar...

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 17:13:54 +0100

youngbadmanbrown:

shecountsblacksheep:

handaxe:

Levar Burton.

i just let out a loud “WHHOOP” sound

put them on fucking blast LeVar

Reblog this if you have a disability and you are willing to answer any questions anyone may have about said disability.

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 15:35:00 +0100

crackerhell: the-last-moonset: crackerhell: the-last-moonset: ...

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 15:27:42 +0100

crackerhell:

the-last-moonset:

crackerhell:

the-last-moonset:

crackerhell:

thegoddamazon:

starksmash:

goaskmckay:

whimmy-bam:

3/4 into the song back-flips into crazy awesomeness.

HOW THE FUCK DOES SHE DO THAT WITH HER VOICE?

Oh my gosh this is the first full and good quality version of this I have found! Thank you for posting :)

love this freakin song

OMG this is my shiiiit. I have the entire score/album to this movie. It’s badass.

she DOESN’T do that with her voice, it’s tracked over to make her voice do anything that sounds unnatural

I’m pretty sure she either did it with her voice, or can do it with her voice, given that she did the first part. Example: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bgo0CDL6bd0

I can guarantee that she absolutely did not do the super impressive parts with her own voice. I watched a video around when the movie came out explaining the second half of the song (she did indeed do the first half but that’s also normal opera), and she was explaining how they told her they wanted to have her hit all these crazy impossible notes out of her range and they tracked over her to get that “alien voice” effect there.

Thanks for the info. Hm, I wonder what she sounded like then. That woman I linked did an amazing job, so I’d assume the original singer did as well- just not as alien enough for them, ha.

that was a pretty fucking good job, i must admit xD

If not for the fact that I’m out of practice, I could sing it too. I used to practice it regularly, while I was still singing a lot of opera stuff. I wouldn’t claim to do it as well as this Laura, who was linked up above, but I got close enough to the original, to make me believe the singer did it fully on her own, with only a little bit of editing of sound to make it sound more alien. Oh well, I’ve been wrong before :-p

(The first bit (il dolce suono) is an aria from Lucia di Lammermoor by Donizetti, btw. /random trivia)

the2000iqkilljoydetective: gyarados: Can we talk about how clever the pokemon Mareep is It’s name...

Tue, 05 Feb 2013 10:38:36 +0100

the2000iqkilljoydetective:

gyarados:

Can we talk about how clever the pokemon Mareep is

It’s name can be seen as a portmanteau of “Mary” and “sheep” (i.e. Mary had a little lamb)

It’s name is an anagram of “ampere”, a unit of electric current

It’s inspired by the novel Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

It’s literally an electric sheep

what about how clever ekans is though?

ekans is snake backwards

ekans is a snake

Ekans evolves into Arbok, which is Kobra backwards. And you may think Cobra is spelled with a c, but that’s entirely dependent on the language in which you spell it. It’s spelled Kobra with a k in Danish :-p

girljanitor: rraaaarrl: Happy Dance! [x] so cute omg 3/4 it...

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 22:54:06 +0100

girljanitor:

rraaaarrl:

Happy Dance! [x]

so cute

omg 3/4 it fall down

metapianycist: scrubbdragon: What sucks about being asexual is that if you’re sexual and you like...

Wed, 30 Jan 2013 10:35:09 +0100

metapianycist:

scrubbdragon:

What sucks about being asexual is that if you’re sexual and you like someone and you don’t know how to say it you can just go up to them and kiss them, and okay it can be more complicated than that but you at least have physical cues for when words fail. But if you’re asexual, you have to say it, and our society doesn’t even really have the vocabulary to describe ace love, so you can’t really say it at all. And I don’t know why I’m thinking about this now except that it’s 3 am so I’m dwelling on things I probably shouldn’t.

We do have words, and they are often the same words or similar: “I like you,” “I would like to go on a date with you,” “I would like to cuddle you,” “I love you,” etc.

(Also, it’s fucking shitty and wrong to kiss people without their consent.)

Maybe I’m just ignorant, but why would physical cues be irrelevant for asexual people? Not everything physical is inherently sexual to my knowledge.

Also, sexual allistics consistently manage to fuck up their own physical cues as well as misread those of others, because they can’t be arsed to use words. I am familiar with several autistic people (myself included) who have had their boundaries severely overstepped by people, who did exactly this thing the OP is envious of being available to sexual people.

Believe me, it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. Using words is not impossible, because we do have words, but in my experience using words to signal interest makes you feel a lot more vulnerable, because words are concrete can be used against you, whereas physical cues can be explained away as mere misinterpretations. This sometimes makes using words seem impossible, but it isn’t. I know, because I have to use words, what with not having much of any understanding of non-verbal cues.

I am now officially partnered with someone

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 01:40:26 +0100

and I am squeeing so hard!

I spent all weekend with this bloke. I have no idea what magic this is, but somehow he and I “speak” the same non-verbal language. Neither of us are any good at understanding non-verbal shit from other people - not even other auties. But somehow we read each other so well it’s as if this particular impairment is just completely gone when it’s just the two of us. I have never experienced anything as weird as this.

I am so in love. And I need to sleep.

Also we had probably *the* best sex I’ve ever had. I don’t know how this happened, but it sure does mean I’ll have pleasant dreams I’m pretty sure.

/flail

Gonna leave in a bit to spend the weekend with the bloke, I’m kinda in love with. It’ll...

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 14:00:02 +0100

Gonna leave in a bit to spend the weekend with the bloke, I’m kinda in love with.

It’ll probably be the most time I’ve ever spent with someone without curbing my stims and other abnormal mannerisms. It’s gonna be so strange and new for me, but I feel so completely safe and comfortable with this visit, that that fact alone freaks me out a little.

I’m so excited I’ve pretty much been flapping my hands non-stop in every unoccupied moment (and a fair few occupied ones, too) for the past 3 days.

/flail

neuroatypically-speaking: nitroglycerin-trucks: Hand stabbed...

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:41:10 +0100

neuroatypically-speaking:

nitroglycerin-trucks:

Hand stabbed with my blanket, one inch deep, 99% chance of survival

I think I won

Cheek stabbed one inch deep with a tube of chapstick. Since the last two digits of my phone number are 31, I must assume something goes wrong in the facial reconstruction surgery.

Hand stabbed 5 inch deep with a book. Survival chance: 80%

I… don’t know how that will work.

fuckyeahwarriorwomen: [ Description: A woman with dark skin and...

Fri, 25 Jan 2013 12:17:01 +0100

fuckyeahwarriorwomen:

[ Description: A woman with dark skin and long dark hair styled in cornrows and braids. She is posed in profile facing the left of the image, wearing full-plate armour that doesn’t have individual breasts fashioned into it. She wears a an ornate multihoop earring with a skull-shaped bead at its centre. ]

The Huntress by S. Ross Browne

pyrzqxgl: Freedom...

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 19:33:28 +0100

pyrzqxgl:

Freedom Bucket

spockisinthetardis:

lupinebrother:

bigbigbigday006:

spookyplaydate:

halianfromplanetzork:

digatisdi:

When I was in preschool there was this really weird system of time-out where they’d put you in this giant plastic bucket sort of like this one:

And the rule was you couldn’t leave the bucket for ten minutes.

In case you didn’t know, I was what the teachers referred to as a “difficult child” which is code for “walking entity of sass” so I was in the time-out bucket quite a bit.

Once they put me in the bucket for thirty minutes— and I thought that was incredibly unfair so I grabbed the handles and shifted my body repeatedly until the bucket and I were out of the classroom, in the hallway, and through the front door. They found me in the parking lot scooting to freedom in the time-out bucket. The teachers were furious and I said, “Hey, I never left the bucket”

So they called my mum and told her what I did and she just said, “Well, he never left the bucket.”

I haven’t laughed so hard in ages

THIS WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVORITE POST

TONIGHT, MY BUCKET, WE RIDE TO FREEDOM!

FOR NARNIA! AND FOR ASLAN!

WE RIDE AT DAWN

Photo

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 19:27:49 +0100

These are a few of my favourite things + nebulas

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 19:19:12 +0100

These are a few of my favourite things + nebulas

mamamantis: withlovethelavendermenace: it makes me really uncomfortable when queer people call...

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:39:37 +0100

mamamantis:

withlovethelavendermenace:

it makes me really uncomfortable when queer people call straight people “breeders” because

1. it’s almost always gay men whom I see using it and the way they reduce women to their reproductive capabilities is a little skin-crawling

2. it totally erases the fact that some queer people do have heterosexual relationships oh wait I forgot bisexuals don’t count as queer or whatever that bullshit story is

3. it also erases the fact that “breeding” is completely possible in some same-gender relationships; trans* people exist, you’ll recall

4. black women were assessed on their breeding capabilities and called “breeders” as a measure of their worth as slaves so how about we just don’t

FUCKING THANK YOU

"You guys know about vampires? … You know, vampires have no reflections in a mirror? There’s this..."

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 08:43:16 +0100

““You guys know about vampires? … You know, vampires have no reflections in a mirror? There’s this idea that monsters don’t have reflections in a mirror. And what I’ve always thought isn’t that monsters don’t have reflections in a mirror. It’s that if you want to make a human being into a monster, deny them, at the cultural level, any reflection of themselves. And growing up, I felt like a monster in some ways. I didn’t see myself reflected at all. I was like, “Yo, is something wrong with me? That the whole society seems to think that people like me don’t exist? And part of what inspired me, was this deep desire that before I died, I would make a couple of mirrors. That I would make some mirrors so that kids like me might see themselves reflected back and might not feel so monstrous for it.””

- - Junot Diaz (via Tatiana Richards)

oh my goodness this is beautifully relevant. humongously sad and inspiring at the same time, too

(via fuatino)

snarg: its all fun and games until you fall in love with someone via internet … it’s...

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 08:40:50 +0100

snarg:

its all fun and games until you fall in love with someone via internet

… it’s still fun and games.

‘Cause in two days’ time I’m going to see the bloke with whom I’ve fallen in love with over the internet.

We’ve been spouting digustingly adorable romantic technobabble at each other for the past week, since we realised our feelings were mutual.

I swear, we’ve probably both regressed to age 14½ right now.

But it feels right and good, and he’s autistic like me, and we’ve so many things in common - even some of our stims >.< - that we’re both really confident that this is gonna work out great.

Neither of us are good at picking up on the feelings of others, but that just means we both have a need to verbalize everything, meaning neither of us will have to explain our need for the other person to do so, because it’s comes naturally to us both, and it’s just amazing, and I literally never thought I’d meet anyone I’d ever have this kind of connection with.

AAAAHHHHHHHHH!

/flail