The View From My Brain, Question on stimming

Question on stimming

So, like, I get really bored when I try to put all my attention into absorbing something that someone else is doing. This is bad when I have, like, a lecture in class. I have a lot more mental energy there than paying attention to the class takes up (especially when the professor is just writing on the board and has finished verbally explaining the point), and I have to have everything there because I do sometimes need all of it.

So, like, I try to find low-mental-effort things to distract myself with; if I’m using my computer to take notes I might be in a light conversation in chat or periodically glancing over some reading material, for instance. This feels like a stim to me; like, a mental/communicative stim, if that makes any sense. And, like, if I don’t, I usually end up not being able to pay attention to the class at all and sometimes even falling asleep.

So, does anyone else do this? Does this make sense to anyone else?

Makes perfect sense. I always identified things I do in my head as mental stims, but yeah, I suppose that naturally extends to having a light convo in chat or playing a facebook game or whatever’s your thing.

I do definitely recognize the lecture slipping from one’s focus, because all of a sudden things are not moving forward as fast as your brain was geared towards.

hardheadedme reblogged this from tal9000 and added:

I’m not autistic but I’ve always had a very similar problem, especially in school....used...
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jemimaaslana reblogged this from tal9000 and added:

Makes perfect sense....always identified things...stims, but...
draggle said: It makes sense. I consider it an ADHD thing, though, although there is plenty of overlap between ADHD and ASD.
tal9000 reblogged this from mhoffbauer and added:

Thanks. Mostly I’m trying to figure out what this thing I have is. I’m only guessing that it’s an autistic thing.
mhoffbauer reblogged this from tal9000 and added:

Hey, I hope you don’t mind hearing my experience some more. Like I said I am not diagnosed with any form of autism and I...
mr-owls reblogged this from tal9000 and added:

100% me. In fact,...Dreamwidth about it...it interferes with...
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